It is only just hitting me that in a matter of weeks, the girls I have lived with for the past three years and I will never live together again. In fact, each of us will be transitioning to living with– a man— for the […]
Yup. I’m a 21 year old Canadian female and only just recently got my ears pierced.
And then… un-pierced. And the whole debacle is what led to some leaps in my physical recovery from eating disorders, and a greater understanding of my personal identity.
Excessive? Allow me to explain.
I grew up with two sisters, and remember each of them getting their ears pierced. In fact, I remember each of them begging my mom to allow them to get their ears pierced at quite young ages.
But when my mom asked me if I ever wanted to get mine pierced, my answer, a few times over, was no. I just didn’t see the point in getting a needle put in my ears so that I could put jewelry in them. It just seemed like unnecessary efforts.
I’ve never been extremely opposed to the idea of having ear piercings, and definitely not to that of having piercings in general– I do, after all, have my belly button pierced. So when my friend Brooke and I went to get pedicures a few weeks ago and I noticed that the place did ear piercings for just $15 with free earrings, I thought, Why not?
Now, in hindsight, and after talking to a few friends afterward, I realize the question I really should have been asking when I saw that the piercing AND earrings together cost 15$ was Why?
In any case, I really liked the piercings for about a week after having them. They were easy to get used to, and easy to clean. I cleaned them thoroughly with warm salt water three times per day.
After about a week, though, I noticed the infection starting, and it only worsened over the next several days.
My dear friend, also known as my “soulmate” Bethany zeroed in on the infection the moment she saw me, and insisted upon taking me to Shoppers Drug Mart to get the appropriate products to fix it. I was incredibly grateful; I had not known what to do, especially with my go-to ailment-healer away at the cottage (my mom, of course).
And so, I set out to use the solution three times per day as Bethany had instructed, but soon realized that the infection was already too advanced. It would definitely require more serious care.
I decided to go to a walk-in clinic, where I was prescribed both a topical cream, and an antibiotic, by a patient doctor with a kind smile. The antibiotic was to be taken 4 times per day, with a decent meal each time.
It was when I realized how difficult it was for me to eat four large meals per day that I turned to prayer, confused.
I’m a “six small meals a day” kind of person, and this antibiotic did NOT work with snacks. If I didn’t have enough food with it, I noticed instantly that I had a horrible stomachache afterwards.
The last full update I did about eating disorder recovery is here.
After writing this one, I told myself that I would not qualify myself to give advice on my own experiences with recovery until I had gotten at least three periods in a row. I’ve experienced in the past “feeling” so educated on the topic of the recovery– and, from a knowledge-perspective, I am– but without having the success displayed in my own life.
So when I realized that the prospect of eating enough food at a time to make four large meals per day was mentally a little bit daunting, my reaction that of was fear and doubt.
Had I slipped back into more old habits than I’d realized?
I’ve spent a lot of this past week and a half reflecting on and praying about the previous year that I spent working at a health-food cafe.
I’ve already spoken about it to myself, and to some friends and family, and I don’t like to say it but acknowledging it was step one: some circumstances of the past year have triggered some old thought patterns which *sometimes* lead to old disordered behaviours.
That, and the reality that I could still relate so much to this video made me realize that “diet culture” had probably had its way with me more than I had previously admitted.
And, of course, my God and His timing? Sooo paramount.
The LORD your God will drive out those nations before you, little by little. You will not be allowed to eliminate them all at once, or the wild animals will multiply around you. DEUTERONOMY 7:22
I’ve had to take this antibiotic and learn to be okay with eating four big meals a day (and snacks, too, if I want them) during my couple weeks off after leaving my job in the health food industry, and before starting my new one as a writer.
There has been an INCREDIBLE amount of healing during this time that I didn’t even know I needed. I plan to share more about the key areas of healing that God has revealed to me through prayer, time in the Word, and those around me. Removing myself from lies that I’ve believed in the past that were my everyday environment for a while again, repenting of believing them, and getting up close with Truth and Life in Jesus has been the desire of my soul. And He’s already reminded me that He already had victory over this battle, and that if there’s more that needs to be nailed to the cross, would He show me, but otherwise I can walk confidently in that victory.
Today, I simply want to highlight that something as seemingly insignificant as an ear infection can be a paramount turning point when entrusted to God.
He uses everything for His glory. Even a silly decision to take a nail artist up on a $15 piercing.
If you love doing your make-up, but also don’t love doing it for more than, ah, 20 minutes, you’re like me. I played around with brands and looks for a long time before I found my personal staple products, the things I always have on […]
Some people prefer thin smoothies to thick ones. These people are not to be trusted. I’m kidding. Sort of. I decided to create a recipe for a thinner smoothie for the blog, just for those people, because thin ones will not be included in my […]
This recipe is a little delayed getting to you for a few reasons.
a) I’ve spent a lot of time tweaking, testing, and sampling it.
b) It’s coming atcha with an exciting announcement,
c) the recipe was a guinea pig of sorts for my friend Laura’s birthday party, which was tonight.
But I am happy with this final product that I hope you will enjoy. This is my own version of a dairy-free by default, moist, chocolatey cupcake. Easy, made in one bowl, and delicious.
The announcement, you ask?
I have been working for a month or so under the radar on my first ebook and cookbook, which will both be available for purchase on September 1st, 2017. I am sooo excited to be offering a cookbook that will include:
-from-scratch, easy-to-follow, wholesome-ingredient recipes created by me
-stories, blurbs, and anecdotes
-breakfasts and bowls, savoury and sweet
I cannot wait to share this book with you, which will have you hooked on all my variations of oatmeal breakfasts, toting a fancy homemade layer cake to your next get-together, and out of your dinner rut for good.
It’s been a lot of fun just cookin’ in my free time, seeing what kind of creativity just comes. I hope you’ll enjoy the recipes as much as I’m enjoying this process!
For now, enjoy today’s chocolatey goodness, which are the answer to any sweet or chocolate craving.
Chocolate “Brownie” Cupcakes
makes 24 cupcakes
3 cups dairy-free milk, unsweetened vanilla (I used almond milk)
1 T vinegar
1/3 cup coconut oil, melted
1 cup grape seed oil
3 cups flour
2 cups sugar
1 1/2 cups cacao powder
1 T baking soda
2 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp salt
5 cups powdered sugar
1/2 cup melted coconut oil
1/4 cup unsweetened vanilla almond milk
food colouring, if desired
Dark chocolate chunks, melted and cooled
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Line 2 12-muffin muffin trays with paper liners.
- In a medium bowl, combine milk with vinegar and let sit for 3-5 minutes.
- Stir in melted coconut oil and grape seed oil. Gradually add the flour and stir to combine. Add sugar, cacao, baking soda, baking powder, and salt, and stir until no lumps remain. The batter should be thick, but pourable.
- Pour into prepared pans, filling each liner about 3/4 full. Bake for 18-20 minutes, or until toothpick inserted in the centre of a cupcake comes out clean. Allow to cool completely.
- To prepare frosting, beat powdered sugar with coconut oil; it will look clumpy. Add just enough milk to made frosting smooth and spreadable. Add food colouring of choice, if desired.
- Frost completely cooled cupcakes. If desired, dip all or some of the cupcakes in the melted chocolate, or make designs with the chocolate, and top with chopped pretzel sticks for a sweet-and-salty version.
As for me and my house we will serve the LORD. JOSHUA 24:15 In honour of my beautiful roommate Mary’s birthday, I made strawberry peppermint drinks that I used to make for friends in high school. With just an oz of peppermint liquer per person, […]
More consistently than any other question, I get asked how I make my baked oats.
I do have secrets for making these amazing breakfast bowls, friends.
And I’m going to share them all here!
But first: here is a prayer, not written by her, but sent to me by my dear friend Emily this morning:
So. Baked oats.
They come out looking like an apple or blueberry crisp or banana bread or peach cobbler depending on the fruit you use, but made with entirely whole foods and no added sugar. The way our bodies are meant to thrive!
I use 1 cup of oats. The oats I use are the President’s Choice organic quick oats variety, but thick rolled oats work beautifully, too (they’re just super expensive… feel free to send some my way😉).
So yeah, put your oats in a bowl.
Next comes your liquid. Use the same amount of liquid to oats; water, milk, almond milk, coffee (I’d recommend half coffee half milk), chai tea… you can get quite creative depending on your taste buds here!
Now, add your baking soda and salt. About a half teaspoon of each should do it. I add 1 packet of stevia here, but feel free to add a bit of honey, maple syrup, or sugar, if desired. Stir it all up in a bowl and allow that to soak for about 10 minutes.
Next come your mix-ins! I have used frozen cherries, blackberries, blueberries, strawberries, peaches, apples, banana, dates, carrot, mango, sweet potato, and mixes of them! The options are endless and totally up to you! This is also a good time to add spices that suit the flavour you’re going for. Cinnamon with apples is necessary… cacao with banana or cherry… nutmeg, chai spice, the options are endless!
Once your mix-ins are thoroughly stirred into your oats, the bowl goes to the oven! Bake them for 27 mins at 450 degrees, and then broil for an additional 1-2 mins for the most amazing texture. Allow to cool for about ten minutes before topping.
For me, the only topping necessity is nut butter, and I’ve used just about every variety of nut butter there is. But you can also add dried fruit, nuts, a splash of milk or maple syrup, granola, cereals… again, creativity.
And there you have it! This makes for such a filling and nourishing breakfast that aided me throughout my recovery and beyond, plus is something I genuinely enjoy, and enjoy experimenting with!
May God Bless and ignite your weekend with His Spirit and may you be so newly aware of His presence.
What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ Good evening! I hope you all had a really […]