But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. The past few days have been some of the greatest of my life. Johnny came home Friday night. He called me […]
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. ECCLESIASTES 3:11-12
I have eaten according to my hunger today.
I FEEL LIKE I AM TASTING FOOD FOR THE FIRST TIME. And I genuinely have no fear in it, because it has felt so good…. in this new sense of understanding that is unexplainable. This shift has been Jesus.
I have some fear and reservations in saying this because I have said it before. And then struggled and felt like I was “living up” to His name. But oh, how it is not in my own human responsibility to “live up.” Yes, I am called to submit to His will, to pray, to do as He says– not only called, but I DELIGHT in these things more each and every day as He fills me up. But I also have renewed trust and understanding of which voices are bad and which voices are not of my God and as a result of listening to Him in terms of food where I never before have, I feel free and alive in a way I never before have.
Today I ate French toast, I ate a burger, I snacked while my roommates’ friends were in the living room.
I prayed over every aspect of my day and for my family and friends and things outside my own corner.
I had an amazing and beautiful coffee date with Johnny’s soon-to-be sister-in-law, who is such a stunning light of the Lord and who I cannot wait to get to know even more.
Today I woke up more confident than ever in my love for and relationship with Johnny as we pursue God in each other and feel Him drawing us toward Him as the centre.
I woke up thanking and praising my God for His victory, grace, tough love, and the timing that I am not made to fully understand.
I woke up to a roommate (and another one in Niagara) who loves me and pours into me, a beautiful family in Kitchener, and amazing friends– and ultimately an amazing God.
This is a post of thankfulness and praise. I don’t have it all together, but may my life be nothing but a beautiful offering and my body nothing but a vessel through which He works.
I am not an endorser of this disorder because God isn’t. And I praise and thank Him for showing me that.
Good Afternoon!🤗 More consistently than any other question, I get asked how I make my baked oats. I do have secrets for making these amazing breakfast bowls, friends. And I’m going to share them all here! But first: here is a prayer, not written by […]
What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ Good evening! I hope you all had a really […]
Day-Maker. Today I had a free drink on my Starbucks card (a barista who still frequents Starbucks when I’m not working, that I am), and in the midst of stirring and lidding my coffee a man so genuinely complicated my jacket, joked with me in just such a personable and human connection kind of way that it wasn’t “authentic” enough when I told him I got it at Winners, told me he hoped I had an extra special day. It was just so nice.
Little Wins. Speaking of which: my coffee was a venti half caf Americano with 1 pump MOCHA and room for soymilk. This drink is unpleasant to “Ed” in three different ways, but totally pleasant to me, and I know this voice is nothingness and putting it down is giving me a new sense of ease that I’ve never had.
What’s Cookin? I’ve been trying to bring all sorts of new things into my kitchen. I baked eggplant the other night, I’m eating sunflower seed butter again, more beef, pasta dishes, smoothie bowls. Really just trying to think outside the box with my OWN food, and not just what I cook for others.
Semester’s End. I have exactly 3 more big essays, 1 presentation, and 3 exams left. This feels like nothing as compared to the last few weeks, and I feel so in need of the upcoming break! Just over two weeks till Johnny is back…❤️
Jacqueline. Ah, this girl has been an indescribable blessing in my life over the past few months. Coming out of nowhere (well, not nowhere; she has connections to many of Johnny’s friends and that is how we met), our friendship is so special and real and good. She is such a beautiful sister in Christ and in accountability and I love spending time with her!
Christmas Shopping. Is so much fun! Most of it so far has been at Chapters and Starbucks, what a concept haha (oh no Kathryn, I’m turning into you).
Starbucks. Oh, speaking of… I love my job more and more every day. Like just genuinely adore who I work with, customer interactions both with regulars and strangers, becoming better at making beautiful and delicious drinks. I love it.
Dance Teaching. Tonight was my Tuesday classes’ last classes of the fall session, and so they showcased their final dances. I have not had a year of teaching yet in which I made SO many special relationships and connections with the kids, and I feel so blessed and learn so much from these kids every day. They are beautiful and made me so proud! My parents came to watch the last class, which was oddly emotional in a wonderful way, too.
Hair Toning. If you’re looking for a product to keep the brass out of your hair and make it ashier, look no further than Daddy-O Shampoo from Lush. This has worked better than anything I’ve ever used and is so gentle and pigmented. Just use a super moisturizing conditioner with it!
Burnout. The past month, since addressing my innate go-go-go personality and how they might be detrimental to me with my councillor, I have found SO much peace and LIFE in my busyness that I thought impossible and I feel so grateful now for the busyness. I’m genuinely so happy and feeling more myself each day.
Hey! How’s it goin? I just finished another paper and have tons more to do before the end of this semester school-wise, but it’s flying by. I thought I’d sit down (actually currently in a lecture… oops😜), and do a review post, which I haven’t […]
HELLO HELLO! So yes I had oats for breakfast. Chocolate ones with apple and peanut butter and they were delicious😍 God’s truth judges created things out of love, and Satan’s truth judges them out of envy and hatred. DIETRICH BONHOEFFER Today, as promised, I am […]
Today, I was challenged to forgo oatmeal of any kind.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
This morning, on my blog, I mentioned this challenge, but I didn’t mention who challenged me.
Because it was me! More accurately, the Word. More accurately, the Lord. Because in prayer today I had this revelation that will seem so common sense and strange to all of you but what to me was actually pivotal: Um, I don’t just have to eat oats and bodies have run off other foods thank you very much.
Now, I have also learned that there’s nothing wrong with having a standard go-to breakfast. Food shouldn’t be emphasized at the very same time as it shouldn’t be feared. But that is the point: it has been both emphasized and feared in my life.
And so I ventured into uncharted waters, brewed my morning coffee (note: that is a ventured water 100%), and toasted two pieces of barely toast and had them with two hard boiled eggs for breakfast… and I enjoyed it.
I can say that I ate this with no fear. In fact, with a smile.
I got ready for class and headed out the door with Mary and Maddie to our Wednesday AM Bible class, which was great as usual. After class, I went to the school library for a few hours where I worked on papers and ate a snack of a quest protein bar.
I headed home for a late lunch, where I also got to catch up with Maddie. I talked with her in the kitchen and munched on big carrots and was able to focus on our conversation without worry. Praise the Lord! For lunch along with the carrots I made a biiig bowl of goat’s Milk yogurt with pb2, and I had organic chicken sausage. Weird cravings, but chalk full of macronutrients. And I can genuinely say that they were cravings, and I enjoyed the food. It all left me very full, though. And I know this means I need to keep increasing!
I headed back to the library to meet my beautiful friend Jacqueline, and we caught up over tea before studying together. I can honestly say that I have never related to a person’s brain more than Jacqueline’s in my entire life. In spirituality, maturity, sense of humour, quirks, drive, we are so similar and often say the exact same things over top of each other. It’s one of the coolest and most wonderful friendships ever and I’m so grateful for her. She entirely made my day today!
I headed back home to make dinner before dance. I was going to stay on campus, as I had this tiny voice saying just skip dinner, but nope nope nope, not this girl.
I wanted to have oats. The disorder wanted me to have oats, rather. I thought I was going to have oats, but I didn’t.
I made my new homemade recipe for chickpea sweet potato soup. It hit the spot and also really filled me up! Again, I know I need to keep getting used to food.
Food is for the stomach and the stomach for food, and God will destroy both one and the other.
Today in scrolling through my old blogs, I found a #WIAW from the first day I ever talked to Johnny, almost exactly one year ago. Haven’t been plugged in that long? Check it out here.
When I was eating dinner tonight, the Lord put something so massive on my heart: I haven’t been praying for meals. Before I eat, sure I thank Him somewhat, but I don’t truly sit down and take the time to listen to His Spirit and allow Him to fill me. When I’m not faced with food, it’s so much easier for me to fix my eyes on Him… but He is equally present when I’m eating. Ah, the devil just thinks he’s taken over when food is present. This is not okay with me.
Thank-you, Lord, for nourishment. For food that I know is a blessing but that the devil doesn’t want me to see as such. Fill me with your Spirit, Heavenly Father, that I might see this more through Your eyes and approach food with a Kingdomly mind. Amen.
I am off to dance class now to unwind, and later tonight for tea with a wonderful friend, Emily, who texted me this:
Morning Blessing: May the Holy Spirit detoxify your soul! May He show you what needs to go so He can strengthen you for the road ahead. May you get a glimpse of His plan for you; just enough to inspire you to make the necessary changes, take the necessary steps, and grab a firm hold of His promises. May you be willing to do something different so you’ll be ready and equipped for this next place of promise. He’s got a new chapter ahead for you. May you care enough about your story to leave the lesser things behind. You’re so precious and important to Him! Blessings on your day today.