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Childhood Chicken Fried Rice

Childhood Chicken Fried Rice

Raise your hand if you were a picky eater as a kid. (I’m raising my hand). I was the PICKIEST of the picky. I could count the number of foods I was happy eating on both hands (well, both hands if you’ll allow me to […]

A Morning with my Best Friend

A Morning with my Best Friend

Morning. Not stupid early, but not late morning, it’s 8:30am and your eyelids open after a solid, undisturbed 8 hour sleep. You smile to yourself, feeling that euphoric, passionate, life-is-good-because-God-is-good emotion that translates to excitement to spend time with Jesus. You know He’s going to […]

Link Love: Cookie Dough Cream Pie (You Need This In Your Life)

Link Love: Cookie Dough Cream Pie (You Need This In Your Life)

This morning was particularly special.
Waking up leisurely, spending time in the Word convicted by the Lord and with time spent in prayer; awake to spend time baking while Mary’s worship music played and we caught up.
I made a delicious recipe from my all-time favourite cookbook by Lindsay Landis: cookie dough cream pie.
All images today, and the recipe is her’s! Her blog, Love and Olive Oil, is absolutely amazing, I must tell you. This innovative chef’s recipes speak to me; her three published cookbooks are called Breakfast for Dinner, That’s My Jam, and Cookie Dough Lover’s. 
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Lindsay definitely speaks my culinary language ;).
Spending time baking this morning, with all-purpose flour and margarine and brown sugar, like my momma used to– not spelt flour or stevia baking substitute or mashed banana, as I would in my sick days– I loved testing the four layers of this cake as I baked, loved seeing it all come together.
And, as I just shared with Maddie, “I could cry thanking my Saviour for the pure and uninterrupted freedom that is His Spirit. Where once I baked entire pies and hid them to binge on, and soon later I wouldn’t taste brown sugar or butter for four years– I now love licking spoons and enjoying a piece or two of my desserts and creations, now in a place where my body digests almost everything very comfortably and has more energy than ever.”
To learn about how Jesus’ delivered me from this disordered past, check out this blog post.
And now here is the recipe, courtesy of Lindsay Landis.
MY VARIATIONS:
I used dairy-free margarine in place of butter, almond milk in place of milk and whole milk, and a container of coconut milk whipped topping instead of making my own whipped cream.

Ingredients:

For Pie Crust:
1 1/2 cups chocolate wafer cookie crumbs (about 7 oz of cookies, processed in a food processor)
6 tablespoons butter, melted
Cookie Dough:
1 1/4 cups all purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 cup (1 stick) butter, room temperature
3/8 cup granulated sugar
3/8 cup packed brown sugar
1/2 teaspoon vanilla
2 1/2 tablespoons milk or soy milk
1/2 cup mini semi-sweet chocolate chips
For Filling:
3/4 cups light brown sugar
1/3 cup all-purpose flour
1/4 teaspoon salt
2 cups whole milk
3 egg yolks
1 tablespoon unsalted butter
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
Topping:
1 cup heavy cream
3 tablespoons sugar
1/2 teaspoon vanilla

Directions:

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. In a small bowl, mix together melted butter and cookie crumbs. Firmly press into a 9″ pie pan (tip: use a flat bottomed measuring cup to press the crumbs on the bottoms and up the sides. It’ll make a nice sturdy crust with clean corners). Bake for 8 minutes and remove from heat. Set aside and allow to cool completely. Keep oven on.
To prepare cookie dough, beat butter and sugars and in large bowl with electric mixer on medium speed until light and fluffy. Add milk and vanilla. Mix in flour, baking soda and salt and mix on low speed (or by hand) until incorporated. Stir in chocolate chips. Using some of the dough, make 8 small (1/2″ in diameter) balls. Place on a non-stick baking sheet or a baking sheet lined with parchment. Bake for 7-9 minutes or until edges are lightly golden. Allow to cool for a few minutes, then transfer to a wire rack to cool completely. Reserve remaining dough (dough can be made 1 day in advance and stored, covered, in the refrigerator. Bring to room temperature prior to using).
In a medium saucepan, mix sugar, flour and salt. Stir in 1 cup of milk, mix until smooth, and bring to a boil over medium heat, stirring constantly. Continue to stir until smooth and thickened, about 2 minutes, then remove from heat.
Beat the egg yolks with the remaining cup of milk. Temper the egg mixture with a small amount of the slightly cooled milk mixture then blend this into the larger saucepan with the cooling milk mixture.
Return saucepan to the heat and bring to a boil again, stirring constantly, lower heat and simmer until mixture is the consistency of thick pudding, about 1 minute. Remove from the heat and quickly stir in butter and vanilla. Set aside.
While filling is cooling, break off pieces of cookie dough and press them into the cooled pie crust. You want an even layer of dough approximately 1/2″ thick (you may have leftover dough, but remember, it’s eggless! so enjoy it!)
Pour in filling on top of dough layer, leveling the top with a rubber spatula. Filling should come up about 1/2″ from the top of the crust. Refrigerate until completely cooled.
Whip cream until it begins to form soft folds. Add sugar and vanilla, and beat until cream holds stiff peaks. Gently spread all but 1/3 cup of whipped cream on top of cooled filling, smoothing top into a slight dome. With remaining cream, pipe or dollop mounds evenly around the pie, and garnish with mini cookies.

Read more at https://www.loveandoliveoil.com/2011/01/cookie-dough-cream-pie.html

UPDATE: From-Scratch Chicken Soup, Favourite Summer Trend, & The Lord's Revelation

UPDATE: From-Scratch Chicken Soup, Favourite Summer Trend, & The Lord's Revelation

Hey guys! As you may have noticed, I took a Spirit-led leave of absence from the blog and am excited to be sitting down to write now. You will discover that the site is different, and, I hope, easier to navigate, though there are still […]

WHAT I "ATE" WEDNESDAY: Light Coffees, Love in My Heart, Good Friends

WHAT I "ATE" WEDNESDAY: Light Coffees, Love in My Heart, Good Friends

Today I woke up with such a grateful heart, automatically so excited about my day. And what did my day entail? A long shift at work, actually. I am so grateful for my workplace, one of people I am excited to be with and am […]

MEDITATION MONDAY: From Glory to Glory

MEDITATION MONDAY: From Glory to Glory

Happy Easter my friends! Our Lord is risen, overcome the grave, forever. And by His grace, He offers a free gift of true life; why on earth would we not live in this each and every moment?
I’m linking up with Naomi today for another Monday’s Musings!

And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. 2 CORINTHIANS 3:18

In this letter to the Corinthians, Paul writes this addressing those who understand Jesus as Lord, and therefore the new freedom from law. Paul reminds us that when we contemplate the Lord’s glory with belief in Him and who He is, we are continually transformed and renewed by His Spirit. What an amazing Truth for all of us, that our God will forever work on our behalf, will never stop showing Himself to people, and we need only trust and submit ourselves to our Father, who we were created for; a purpose “written on the tablets of our hearts.” 

Maybe you’re well in the midst of that understanding, awareness, and complete trust in our Lord Jesus, and have experienced His life-changing presence that is the very reason for our life. Or maybe you have “contemplated” His glory, and are confused; and in the midst of that, have experienced levels of conviction, revelation, and resonance.
This is one small example for me.
There was a time that I was spending all my days calculating that I would put into my body.
I write that statement to the enemy’s shame and to my Lord’s glory, for He worked radical healing in my life so that all that may be of this story is a show of His glory and a song on my heart of His praise. 
All throughout that time, I was convicted when I measured out my food portions, checked menus weeks in advance of going out to eat, and feared many foods. Ever since the first time I saw Cam and Nina’s (one of their videos is above) YouTube videos, I remember becoming more intrigued by the idea of the possibility of “just eating.”
First, just a quick shoutout to these guys; their videography is so impressive and beautiful. And while I no longer watch “What I Eat In A Day” or any food videos unless I’m making food and feel like watching a recipe video, I do still watch these guys when they release new videos because they really rock.
Any way, the way Nina would lick the spoons of her baking, throw ingredients into bowls, just do it, something clicked in me. A buried and neglected part of me went: This is the kind of cooking and food I’m called to. 
“Cassie, do you want a piece of your ice cream cake?”
“Yes, I would love one.”
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Johnny’s mom asked me this weekend after our lunch of leftovers from her amazing Easter dinner the night before, after which I’d had strawberry pie with coconut milk ice cream she’d bought especially for my dairy allergy. She also had made a dairy free ice cream with peanut butter crust. She is certainly a talented chef– it was all delicious.
And Johnny’s mom and I had so many wonderful conversations, seeking Christ’s Word and say, and some of them to do with the old me and the new me, which includes a lot more of Him in me. I talked to her about how I’d felt that conviction in the past, and what an indescribable blessing it was to be in her kitchen now, where I’d been before in a different context with her, just cooking, the two of us excitedly spicing things together, talking and laughing, and the food was just food and not a monster twisted and not a threat but just yummy food.
The food itself I’ve been eating as my true self in Christ has felt physically so good. But mentally, and spiritually… the actual eating of food, the act of, say, licking spoons while baking or actually taking a sample in the grocery store or making whatever I feel like/am hungry for for lunch has been, in fact, not much of an experience. At first, yes, there was so much freedom, and I still spend moments each day thanking and praising my God for His victory over what used to be a veil. But where the doctrines in my life used to consist of things mainly to do with food (which were all lies, worldly constructs and therefore impossible to be “the ways God prepared before my creation for me to walk in”–Ephesians 2:10), the only thing the Spirit of God, the Spirit of all Truth has spoken to me about food when I ask Him is this: there’s not really too much of anything to say about it. My body and my Spirit get it. They crave mostly healthy things but love and accept graciously treats, fries, and other things, and planning what those things might be has no place in my life.
And the result? Where the enemy tried to take me away from presence with people in conversations by occupying my mind with food, I have energy that is noticeable to all my loved ones that I praise God for. My time in the Word is long and present. My days are full and full for Him. And He is “continually transforming me for His glory”– therefore showing me other areas of my self and life that are either too much “me” or too much “world,” and oh Lord, “you must increase, and I must decrease.”

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Dancing is just another vehicle through which I am praising God again that the enemy tried to steal for his purposes; tried, but will never win, ha

And when I was sick, as I contemplated His glory and throughout being ill did love my Lord and believe in my Lord, He certainly did lead me, through His Spirit in different individuals, His Word, and experiences of Him and things clearly not Him, in which a plight through the world trying to fight for me, nothing will ever stop my Lord from fighting for me because He has already won the victory. And what a good, gentle, kind Father He is. “Little by little,” in His timing, for His utmost glory.
And so I pray that you continue to contemplate His glory, dig into His Word, fill your mind and heart with the Life that you were made for. Because He promises to transform you, our perfect God who calls you “My child,” and forever beckons you home.

TOP TEN TUESDAY: Toned and Undeceived

TOP TEN TUESDAY: Toned and Undeceived

Hi Friends! Something that has so bothered me lately is how I used to feel I could glorify and worship God through working out. I loved running, I loved movement, I loved dance– until its only purpose became “how many calories am I burning?” I […]

WHAT I ATE WEDNESDAY: Tasting The Goodness of the Lord

WHAT I ATE WEDNESDAY: Tasting The Goodness of the Lord

Whew. HI! For food is for the stomach and the stomach for food, and God will destroy both one and the other. 1 CORINTHIANS 6:13 Last night I was brought to some of the most extensive and revealing prayer of my life. As God changed […]

TOP TEN TUESDAY: Currently…

Day-Maker. Today I had a free drink on my Starbucks card (a barista who still frequents Starbucks when I’m not working, that I am), and in the midst of stirring and lidding my coffee a man so genuinely complicated my jacket, joked with me in just such a personable and human connection kind of way that it wasn’t “authentic” enough when I told him I got it at Winners, told me he hoped I had an extra special day. It was just so nice. 
Little Wins. Speaking of which: my coffee was a venti half caf Americano with 1 pump MOCHA and room for soymilk. This drink is unpleasant to “Ed” in three different ways, but totally pleasant to me, and I know this voice is nothingness and putting it down is giving me a new sense of ease that I’ve never had. 
What’s Cookin? I’ve been trying to bring all sorts of new things into my kitchen. I baked eggplant the other night, I’m eating sunflower seed butter again, more beef, pasta dishes, smoothie bowls. Really just trying to think outside the box with my OWN food, and not just what I cook for others. 

Semester’s End. I have exactly 3 more big essays, 1 presentation, and 3 exams left. This feels like nothing as compared to the last few weeks, and I feel so in need of the upcoming break! Just over two weeks till Johnny is back…❤️

#Movember but still 😍

Jacqueline. Ah, this girl has been an indescribable blessing in my life over the past few months. Coming out of nowhere (well, not nowhere; she has connections to many of Johnny’s friends and that is how we met), our friendship is so special and real and good. She is such a beautiful sister in Christ and in accountability and I love spending time with her! 
Christmas Shopping. Is so much fun! Most of it so far has been at Chapters and Starbucks, what a concept haha (oh no Kathryn, I’m turning into you).
Starbucks. Oh, speaking of… I love my job more and more every day. Like just genuinely adore who I work with, customer interactions both with regulars and strangers, becoming better at making beautiful and delicious drinks. I love it. 
Dance Teaching. Tonight was my Tuesday classes’ last classes of the fall session, and so they showcased their final dances. I have not had a year of teaching yet in which I made SO many special relationships and connections with the kids, and I feel so blessed and learn so much from these kids every day. They are beautiful and made me so proud! My parents came to watch the last class, which was oddly emotional in a wonderful way, too. 
Hair Toning. If you’re looking for a product to keep the brass out of your hair and make it ashier, look no further than Daddy-O Shampoo from Lush. This has worked better than anything I’ve ever used and is so gentle and pigmented. Just use a super moisturizing conditioner with it! 

Burnout. The past month, since addressing my innate go-go-go personality and how they might be detrimental to me with my councillor, I have found SO much peace and LIFE in my busyness that I thought impossible and I feel so grateful now for the busyness. I’m genuinely so happy and feeling more myself each day. 

MOTIVATION MONDAY: Confused ? 

MOTIVATION MONDAY: Confused ? 

Confusion. I am confused as to where I am in this place of recovery from eating disorders. Whatever that word “recovery” means. I think that is very different in a worldly, doctorly context than it is in a Kingdomly one which is all I really […]