It is mid-November. I am mid-way through the first semester of my last year of my undergrad. Can anyone in the same place– or who’s been there– vouch for the insanity? Yeah. Breaks in order to carry out passions are necessary, I have found. That is why […]
My Sweet, special sister, 18 never looked so beautiful. My sweet pea, you have such a fiercely loving heart. You have always had this beautiful compassion for people that translates to the way you interact with people. I have watched you feel so deeply and […]
He is said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
Do I live as though I believe this? Do I believe this?
Today Jesus blessed me by confronting me with this grace that I certainly believe in, this Truth that is too good to be true– Jesus’ grace is all I need— and giving me tangible tools to heal from layers of lies that have sought to teach me that grace isn’t sufficient.
All in His timing.
Jesus, You are so so good.
Waking early this morning, I made pumpkin spice pancakes and coffee and spent time in His Word before heading out the door to meet two of my pastors and friends.
What the next hour in their company brought was healing I couldn’t imagine.
Offering me leadership accountability and counselling, this dynamic duo, through the Holy Spirit, equipped me with tools as I met them with my biggest conviction of the past several years: My lifestyle is too busy.
I don’t live as though I believe His grace is sufficient. Because when I’m not doing something, I think I need to be. I fill up all my time so that I don’t have to think or rest. A phenomenon that has led to my hyper-processing, and a low ability to focus on one thing at a time. Stressed to the max, I haven’t known how to say no.
After meeting with this beautiful family, I took all my notes and everything they had said, and prayed. I sat still in Jesus’ presence and allowed myself to be there. And I heard Him speak:
There are still areas of law in your life, Cassie. I call you to freedom.
Having feared, in the past, letting go of many of the stringent routines I’ve adhered to for a long time, Jesus made very clear to me some of the tangible things in these routines that didn’t need to be there, and that were stumbling blocks rather than helpful. Things I actually didn’t care about, but was just so used to doing.
I did the necessary things, after praying, to remove these stumbling blocks from my life.
Lay it down. He picks it up. Thank-you Jesus.
And today, I was more present than ever with my homework.
I had a killer workout without thinking about/stressing about other things.
I was present with my beautiful friend, Brooke, who really needed a listening ear.
And I’m not afraid to rest tonight and watch MasterChef, read a book I’m loving, eat some snacks. These simple things would usually give me anxiety that I have not previously been aware of, but, as I sit here and write, I feel a calm in every part of my being that I haven’t felt in a long time. I have established priorities that my Lord has anointed, and they’re for His sake, and rest/fun is a part of that.
His grace is sufficient for me, period. His grace is all this life is about. And I will boast in my weaknesses in order that His strength might be known– because the more weaknesses Cassie has, the more His strength is made manifest in my short time on this earth.
Happy Wednesday! My Wednesdays look like rest this semester. Like, actually. I mean, I do homework as needed, and I do my work from home (freelance writing projects and blog work), but this is about it. I have learned what rest is to me, and sometimes it […]
Much of today’s musings are inspired by a wonderful message preached by Pastor Mike Rutledge at Risen City church yesterday, where Jesus met me in my own worries, stress, and anxieties and revealed newness to me as His Spirit does, starting when I so loudly […]
In a world more automatically public than ever before, solitude and silence are inadvertently taboo, yet a large part of most people’s day.
In my experience, at least, we as a society are more antisocial than ever before, many thanks to social media.
I see it and feel it in myself. I’m not as people-oriented as I once was, and have to stop myself from spending lengths of time scrolling through the photos others post of idealizations of their lives.
When Charles Spurgeon said that “there are times when solitude is better than society,” I bet he was referring to solitude in prayer or thought or learning, and certainly not in the absorption of arbitrary information that settles in our souls more than we realize, creating more expectations and lies than we could imagine.
Are you guarding your heart from these untruths, or allowing social media/the world to dictate truth in your life?
How do you spend time in solitude?
I have been thinking a lot about this Charles Spurgeon quote and the importance of it. The importance of time in solitude– with JESUS, to recharge with Him– even when the world seems to project a message that we need to be out “doing things” in order to be justified or productive.
A few nights ago, I really felt that I needed that time in solitude. But first, I had to confront some feelings of guilt in not “doing something or seeing someone,”
and then the temptation to spend the alone time watching YouTube videos I knew I’d idolize, or a Netflix show I knew wasn’t the reason I’d needed solitude.
Finally, I sat with Jesus. I came to Him and just talked with Him.
And, when I released the control that couldn’t even be mine back to Him, I just heard Him speak.
And where solitude might have at first felt like the selfish thing, because I’m not in any place of helping people, I know the truth that solitude with Jesus is necessary for helping people. This is where He does much of His growing in me– when I am intimate with Him.
I was scared, pushed outside my comfort zone, and past my expectations. Mostly, I was reminded of my freedom, and the utmost importance of approaching the throne of God, both in solitude and in everyday life.
And then silence. Wiser than speech.
If you are not much of a talker, I both appreciate you and want to learn from you. A recent conviction of mine has been the utmost importance of listening, both to the Holy Spirit and to those around me. Slowness to speak is something I often need to work on. Simply trusting that He will speak louder– that listening to others is often my calling– and that He will speak through me if I let Him.
In other words, the words of one of my favourite worship songs, “If I should speak then let it be of the grace that is greater than all my sin, of when justice was served and mercy wins, of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in.”
Hello Friends!! Long time no blog. I have missed sitting to write. How I feel my soul has been needing to sit and let the words flow in pen and paper. Or, more accurately, finger tip and keyboard. And, friends, this song share is my […]