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A Weekend In Wisconsin

A Weekend In Wisconsin

This past weekend takes the cake as one of the best of my life. Friday morning, in one of my theology classes, in the midst of my friend Bethany’s presentation, my phone started ringing. I quickly silenced it and responded to the caller– my friend […]

For My Sister on Your Birthday

For My Sister on Your Birthday

My Sweet, special sister, 18 never looked so beautiful. My sweet pea, you have such a fiercely loving heart. You have always had this beautiful compassion for people that translates to the way you interact with people. I have watched you feel so deeply and […]

A Morning with my Best Friend

A Morning with my Best Friend

Morning. Not stupid early, but not late morning, it’s 8:30am and your eyelids open after a solid, undisturbed 8 hour sleep. You smile to yourself, feeling that euphoric, passionate, life-is-good-because-God-is-good emotion that translates to excitement to spend time with Jesus. You know He’s going to meet you where you are– which happens to be your little student bedroom in Waterloo, warm under the perfect duvet, that perfect warm that is practically impossible to crawl out of.
You roll over just far enough to grab your Bible, and open it to where you left off. Psalms.
Psalm 41. 

Blessed are those who have regard for the weak;

the Lord delivers them in times of trouble.
The Lord protects and preserves them—
they are counted among the blessed in the land—
he does not give them over to the desire of their foes.
The Lord sustains them on their sickbed
and restores them from their bed of illness.

You spend enough time with Jesus to know that you are certainly not perfect at “regarding the weak,” but also to know that He has already forgiven you for it. He instructs you, though, and He makes you better. That simple time calling on His name and seeing His face, His very body, sitting on your bed, nowhere else to be but with you because that’s how much He loves you– whaaat— He tells you to lift your weary head and stop dwelling. He makes you aware of a coping mechanism that you go to when you’d be much better off turning to Him.

But that’s just it.
In the valleys He reminds you of His faithfulness.
If it weren’t for the coping mechanisms and failures and misgivings and faults, you wouldn’t know how much you need Him. That’s not to give any credit to the faults. No, it’s to weaken them, because it’s kind of sad to know that humans need them sometimes in order to know Him. 
But oh, there is grace. Oh, there is so much love. Oh, He is forever and always forgiving and unbudging. Oh, how this God Jesus just wants to befriend you, be above everything else in your life because He knows it’s what’s best for you.
He is, after all, your Father.
 

A Friend Like Brooke

A Friend Like Brooke

I’ve done a couple posts like this before, in which I write about why “everyone deserves a friend like___.” Today, I’m talking about a friend like Brooke. Brooke is one of my co-workers at Pure JBK, and has quickly become a close friend. From the […]

Infinite Jewellery: Your New Favourite Company

Infinite Jewellery: Your New Favourite Company

You know that just-about-to-leave-the-house feeling when you look in the mirror, take one last look at your outfit, and… it’s just not complete? Something’s missing? There’s an easy solution for those almost-perfect outfits. A piece of jewellery might be the exact finishing touch you’re looking for. For […]

Discovering Sufficiency

Discovering Sufficiency

He is said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

Is it?
Do I live as though I believe this? Do I believe this?
Today Jesus blessed me by confronting me with this grace that I certainly believe in, this Truth that is too good to be true– Jesus’ grace is all I need— and giving me tangible tools to heal from layers of lies that have sought to teach me that grace isn’t sufficient.
All in His timing.
Jesus, You are so so good.
Waking early this morning, I made pumpkin spice pancakes and coffee and spent time in His Word before heading out the door to meet two of my pastors and friends.
What the next hour in their company brought was healing I couldn’t imagine.
Offering me leadership accountability and counselling, this dynamic duo, through the Holy Spirit, equipped me with tools as I met them with my biggest conviction of the past several years: My lifestyle is too busy.
I don’t live as though I believe His grace is sufficient. Because when I’m not doing something, I think I need to be. I fill up all my time so that I don’t have to think or rest. A phenomenon that has led to my hyper-processing, and a low ability to focus on one thing at a time. Stressed to the max, I haven’t known how to say no.
After meeting with this beautiful family, I took all my notes and everything they had said, and prayed. I sat still in Jesus’ presence and allowed myself to be there. And I heard Him speak:
There are still areas of law in your life, Cassie. I call you to freedom. 
Having feared, in the past, letting go of many of the stringent routines I’ve adhered to for a long time, Jesus made very clear to me some of the tangible things in these routines that didn’t need to be there, and that were stumbling blocks rather than helpful. Things I actually didn’t care about, but was just so used to doing.
I did the necessary things, after praying, to remove these stumbling blocks from my life.
Lay it down. He picks it up. Thank-you Jesus.
And today, I was more present than ever with my homework.
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I had a killer workout without thinking about/stressing about other things.
I was present with my beautiful friend, Brooke, who really needed a listening ear.
And I’m not afraid to rest tonight and watch MasterChef, read a book I’m loving, eat some snacks. These simple things would usually give me anxiety that I have not previously been aware of, but, as I sit here and write, I feel a calm in every part of my being that I haven’t felt in a long time. I have established priorities that my Lord has anointed, and they’re for His sake, and rest/fun is a part of that.
His grace is sufficient for me, period. His grace is all this life is about. And I will boast in my weaknesses in order that His strength might be known– because the more weaknesses Cassie has, the more His strength is made manifest in my short time on this earth.
 

Learning to Rest for Real

Learning to Rest for Real

Happy Wednesday! My Wednesdays look like rest this semester. Like, actually. I mean, I do homework as needed, and I do my work from home (freelance writing projects and blog work), but this is about it. I have learned what rest is to me, and sometimes it […]

Trusting in the "Delay"

Trusting in the "Delay"

Much of today’s musings are inspired by a wonderful message preached by Pastor Mike Rutledge   at Risen City church yesterday, where Jesus met me in my own worries, stress, and anxieties and revealed newness to me as His Spirit does, starting when I so loudly […]

Solitude over Society?

Solitude over Society?

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In a world more automatically public than ever before, solitude and silence are inadvertently taboo, yet a large part of most people’s day.
In my experience, at least, we as a society are more antisocial than ever before, many thanks to social media.
I see it and feel it in myself. I’m not as people-oriented as I once was, and have to stop myself from spending lengths of time scrolling through the photos others post of idealizations of their lives.
When Charles Spurgeon said that “there are times when solitude is better than society,” I bet he was referring to solitude in prayer or thought or learning, and certainly not in the absorption of arbitrary information that settles in our souls more than we realize, creating more expectations and lies than we could imagine.
Are you guarding your heart from these untruths, or allowing social media/the world to dictate truth in your life?
How do you spend time in solitude?
I have been thinking a lot about this Charles Spurgeon quote and the importance of it. The importance of time in solitude– with JESUS, to recharge with Him– even when the world seems to project a message that we need to be out “doing things” in order to be justified or productive.
A few nights ago, I really felt that I needed that time in solitude. But first, I had to confront some feelings of guilt in not “doing something or seeing someone,”
and then the temptation to spend the alone time watching YouTube videos I knew I’d idolize, or a Netflix show I knew wasn’t the reason I’d needed solitude.
Finally, I sat with Jesus. I came to Him and just talked with Him.
And, when I released the control that couldn’t even be mine back to Him, I just heard Him speak.
And where solitude might have at first felt like the selfish thing, because I’m not in any place of helping people, I know the truth that solitude with Jesus is necessary for helping people. This is where He does much of His growing in me– when I am intimate with Him. 
I was scared, pushed outside my comfort zone, and past my expectations. Mostly, I was reminded of my freedom, and the utmost importance of approaching the throne of God, both in solitude and in everyday life.
And then silence. Wiser than speech.
If you are not much of a talker, I both appreciate you and want to learn from you. A recent conviction of mine has been the utmost importance of listening, both to the Holy Spirit and to those around me. Slowness to speak is something I often need to work on. Simply trusting that He will speak louder– that listening to others is often my calling– and that He will speak through me if I let Him.
In other words, the words of one of my favourite worship songs, “If I should speak then let it be of the grace that is greater than all my sin, of when justice was served and mercy wins, of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in.”
 

UPDATE: Excitable Hellos, Tearful Goodbye, Seasons Changing

UPDATE: Excitable Hellos, Tearful Goodbye, Seasons Changing

Hello Friends!! Long time no blog. I have missed sitting to write. How I feel my soul has been needing to sit and let the words flow in pen and paper. Or, more accurately, finger tip and keyboard. And, friends, this song share is my […]