I’ll cut to the chase. I lost my period for 7 years due to anorexia. As a result of my illness, I lost 80 pounds in 4 months, and my periods vanished, when I was 15. Over the next 7 years, I was visited by Ms. Flow a total of 3 or 4 times for …
Bizarre Eating Disorder Behaviours No One Knows About – And Why We Should Talk About Them
TRIGGER WARNING. This post discusses eating disorders, behaviours, and calories. If you know that this kind of conversation can trigger you, please refrain from reading this post, and choose another one of my posts to read. I NEVER intend or want to trigger anyone, but rather to help. But I know this disclaimer is important …
Throwing Out Clothes that Don’t Fit Anymore – My Identity is Not Size “S”
The first time I tried on a pair of my size 2 jeans that didn’t fit anymore, I felt like I was dying. That’s how much the lie that I NEEDED to stay size 2 and size XS crept its way into my life. That’s how out-of-whack my priorities were. It really did feel like …
Marriage with an Eating Disorder (Part 2)
Read Part One. The month before my wedding was when I really started to consider what meals would look like every day when Johnny and I were married. I wasn’t about to cook him the dinners of my orthorexic past—usually 1/2 cup chicken breast boiled in water with some spinach and maaaybe a 1/4 avocado …
Dating with an Eating Disorder (Part 1)
Bringing a new, beautiful, wonderful, compassionate person into an eating disorder is like the downhill part of a rollercoaster. There’s so much relief and joy and butterflies… but a nagging voice of fear, the voice belonging to the disorder itself. How will I avoid eating with him? What if I can’t measure my food when …
I Owe You An Apology (Re-Reading Some of My Old Blog Posts…)
Happy Wednesday, Friends! As you can likely tell by the title of this post… I owe my frequent readers an apology. Sincerely. Girl to girl, or boy, or whoever you are. The other day, as I was updating some content here on the blog, I got myself in one of those downward spirals that can …
The All-Too-Common Lie of Anorexia: Surpassing BMI 18.5
Please note: this post mentions numbers and weight. If you are in a place in which such content is potentially triggering for you, please refrain from reading this post. My aim is to help rather than hinder, but I pray you take the time to check in with your mental state. Thank-you. The first time …
Why Recovering Eating Disorder Patients DO Need to Eat A LOT…
It is a common misconception that people with eating disorders hate food. The reality is quite the contrary. In most eating disorder sufferers, food is obsessed over, constantly thought about, and researched.In the depths of my disorder, I constantly baked and cooked high-fat, delicious dishes that I wouldn’t let my own tongue even nearly close to, but that I served with glee to those around me.
My Ear Piercing Disaster, Redeemed.
Yup. I’m a 21 year old Canadian female and only just recently got my ears pierced. And then… un-pierced. And the whole debacle is what led to some leaps in my physical recovery from eating disorders, and a greater understanding of my personal identity. Excessive? Allow me to explain. I grew up with two sisters, …
MEDITATION MONDAY: My Story, His Glory
I have for some time now been meaning to document the story of how an eating disorder was overcome in my life for God’s glory and that perhaps it might resonate with anyone struggling. Previous documentations have not included the victory that God has evidently had over the disorder, and I do believe the story …