MOTIVATION MONDAY: Our Battle Is Not Of Flesh

I was texting one of my pastors, Brandon, earlier this evening and he said something really great. “Our battle is nothing of flesh of blood.”

Ah how true! None of our flesh means anything but our only battle is in fact one “we” can’t fight. Christmas won it! It is done FOREVER. All we have to do is accept Him into our lives, that He might carry out a Life in us in which we can expect goodness that is new and real each day. For while Heaven comes from Jesus, He calls us that His will may be done in earth as it is in heaven. Here is to praying that His will be done in my heart, my relationships, my family life, my education, my spirit. For Christ is the only way.

“Motivated to prayer by the Spirit alone.” I talked about it last week. His love poured OUT for us so that we might live in the fullness of His Grace. So that His face is all I want to see; His Son is all I want to be like; His Spirit is all I want to breathe. He is Risen indeed, FOREVER.

“Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.” John 12:25

“Father, into your hands I commit my Spirit. When He said this, He breathed His last.” Luke 23:46





Hey All!
Today I really wanted to talk about my eating habits since being physically recovered and what I think has been good vs. not so good.
A lot of bloggers write forums on the idea of orthorexia– “Am I Orthorexic or Just Healthy?”
Orthorexia is defined as obsession with eating strictly healthy foods accompanied by a fear of eating deemed “bad” foods. I certainly have experienced these emotions and behaviours around food. For about a year after I restored my weight from being underweight to now healthy, I didn’t consume anything that wasnt paleo. Slowly I have reintroduced these foods. The more restrictive my mindset, the lesser my focus on important things. And while everyone thought I was “fine” and “doing so well” because I had gained weight, I was struggling so much inside.
Would I call this orthorexia? No, I don’t think so. I personally think there are too many names for mental illnesses, defining people whether they realize it or not by the way the devil has gotten ahold of them. That’s what it was– it was a way for the devil to still hold me in his clutches while I partied, went out with friends, and was more social. Slowly, the Lord guided me to introducing a variety of foods. My first muffin was only a few months ago… I’ve eaten WHITE pasta without measuring it… I’ve eaten foods I thought I could never face that actually just became “food” when I prayed and just ate them, all in His presence and with the knowledge that He already has won the battle against my eating disorder. Praise the Lord!
Still, I BELIEVE in a whole foods, healthy diet, and that this is optimal for health because it’s full of God-given and not man-made foods. I eat primarily this way but don’t freak out when it’s occasionally not possible to only eat whole foods. The more names we give to what the enemy does, the more power we give him/that he has any control over our lives.


This morning I spent so much time in prayer and in asking the Lord for removal of my disordered thoughts if that be His will and have been so filled and rejoicing in His goodness all morning. His faithfulness endures always and that is just too good.
I ate a good breakfast of 2 bananas and a big handful of berries with cacao powder blended into a smoothie, topped with a Luna protein bar. I worked on some papers for a bit and then packed for the day.

Lunch before I headed out the door was a tiny sweet potato with peanut butter, and some goats milk yogurt with berries and nuts.
An hour and a half later, I arrived on campus in time for Linguistics, which my prof let us out very early from. I met Laura earlier than usual and drank a soy cappuccino for a much needed caffeine boost. We studied together in the lounge and I trekked through a couple of assignments! I also got to spend some time in the Word and catch up with a lovely friend Sarah. Somewhere in the midst I snacked on a Clif bar.
I’m about to head to the seminary to have soup for din, followed by class and a sleepover with Maddie and Bethany. I’m also looking forward to chatting with my prof tonight about my major. I’ve spoken with a few pastors now about how their education has worked and many seem to have done their undergrad in something more background that they were passionate about. My passions all must/are of and from the Lord… and I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting on and praying about majoring in English, as literature is my strongest/most passionate “earthly” medium through which to see Christ’s glory. Studying English with a Christian Studies option for my undergrad would give me the opportunity to take the courses that are taught by the instructors I find most clarity through and the classes that will provide the most growth. I am really excited about this as of now, confident in the Lord and knowing that His will for me may not continue to be Laurier. I’m praying for only more spiritual discernment and grace– and also looking into summer Bible camps/Christian opportunities, because work can definitely wait.
I am happy and joyful in His victory and growing in Him and His life-BREATHING Word each day.
Prayers and Peace!

TOP TEN TUESDAY: Must-Have Nice Cream Ingredients

There are only about two different breakfasts that I eat on a regular basis: nice cream, or oatmeal.

Here, some of the most important nice cream components, in my humble– but correct ;)– opinion.

Bananas. Nice cream obviously starts with frozen bananas. Blended up, nice cream of JUST frozen bananas is actually perfect.

Cherries. My favourite combo is cherry nana ice cream. I actually love buying frozen mix of cherries, blueberries, blackberries, and raspberries.

Cacao. No matter what combo of fruit I’m using, cacao powder is added.

Granola. I can’t eat it without something on top, and granola is by far my favourite topping.


Dates. Dates give a chewy, caramelly taste when blended in the nice cream, but are also great chopped up on top.


Nut Butter. Another staple. I like to melt either peanut, almond, or cashew butter and drizzle it on top.

Mangoes. Frozen mango, banana, and cacao blended is a deliciously, naturally sweet chocolate ice cream.

Almond Milk. I usually use water in my nice cream, but almond milk is my favourite alternative.

Dried Mulberries. These make an excellent topping.

Maple Syrup. Occasionally I use it as a topper with peanut butter.


MOTIVATION MONDAY: Motivated to Prayer By The Spirit Alone

Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is nothing on earth that I desire but you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is my strength and my portion forever. -Psalm 73

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Saviour.

More of you, less of me. Always, all the time Lord lead me, I want to scream but it makes no difference from my silent prayer Lord because you hear me, you know the depths of my soul and the depths the devil has gone and Lord I want the devil gone, fully gone, indeed if that is your will may it be done. For not mine, only yours, Lord, for friendship with the world is ENMITY with You and I know that, so fill my soul with the goodness only your Holy Spirit can provide and by your grace may I go into this world of sin humbly walking in your ways. For I am but a “mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.”

Guide me to stay firm in YOUR Truth only, not swayed by any humans or earthy means or matter but ever steadfast in your goodness and unconditional love.

I am submitting myself, therefore, to you. Teach me your ways and do the works in me that need to be done; I want to praise you in all that I do, Christ Christ Christ be my life, for I know that if I draw near to You, You will draw nearer to me. Ah, for I know that YOU tempt no one and so if I give into temptation I am giving in to Satan; ah, I resent him. Lord save me from his and hiss evil and do what only You can do in me.

Give clarity so that I need NOTHING but You. For indeed, I need nothing but You. Bless me through my relationships with those in whom your Spirit dwells; bless my relationships with those who do not know You. Lord, make You ALL I know.

And yet I worry, the worry creeps in, and Your voice reminds me not to be afraid, not to wonder over tomorrow, but to return to You, your light and your Word, to pray and to love You with all my heart, soul, and mind. For oh how truly the sufferings of the world mean nothing in knowing of the glory soon to be revealed, this temporary world and all its “glamour” is just a blink of an eye. You blessed me with a beautiful soul to fall in love with– how deeply I fell in love, with a man who loves You and is rooted only in You and who does not lead or tempt me to him but whose love and who my love FOR only points me back to You, and the Truth of Your Word. Lead me to You, in his presence and outside of it, continually bless him with growth in you in whatever way you call him and Lord fashion me his helper fit more for supporting each day if that is your will.

I know my body is DEAD because of sin and the only LIFE I may have is because of YOU. AHHH Lord I am on fire!! I praise you to the ends of the earth; not me, may my flesh be dead to me. You intercede with “sighs too deep for words” indeed.


Hey guys!

I’ve tweaked and obsessed over this enough, and so am now posting my original entry for the local cafe Pure.

Sweet Potate n’ Satisfying 

Serves 2

1 sweet potato, poked, peeled, washed, and steamed, then cut in chunks

2 cups broccoli, chopped

1/2 head red cabbage, shredded

1 cup edamame

4 cups spinach

2 cups mushrooms, chopped

2 cups cooked whole grain brown rice

In large pan, melt 1 Tbsp coconut oil. Add all veggies and sauté until tender. Add the cooked brown rice and cover on low until heated through. Add salt and pepper to taste.

For the almond butter dressing:

1/4 cup almond butter

1/3 cup water

1/4 tsp salt

1/4 tsp pepper

1/4 tsp paprika

1/2 tsp dillweed

In small saucepan, whisk all dressing ingredients to gently boiling. Boil and stir one minute; remove from heat. Cool 5 minutes. Add to rice mixture. Separate mix into bowls and sprinkle each serving with 1/2 tbsp sesame seeds, a sprig of raw kale, and a lemon wedge. Sprinkle some freshly ground black pepper.

(The cabbage and edamame are hiding!)

WHAT I ATE WEDNESDAY: His Thoughts Higher Than My Thoughts

Blessings on this Wednesday night!

I’m drafting this at 4pm and already I’ve had such a busy but great day. Always feeling blessed and focusing on the blessings! This morning when I woke I made cacao banana ice cream with 2 bananas, frozen mangos, and cacao powder. I topped it with plenty of peanut butter and a Luna protein bar, along with a bunch of raspberries. I knew I needed this amount of fuel for breakfast. I prepared for the day, did some study in Exodus, and headed out to teach a dance workshop for kids at a march break camp. This was an awesome opportunity and I had so much fun. I was feeling the lack of caffeine, so I grabbed a soy cappuccino afterwards (yah Johnny, Laura, and Brooke, I couldn’t quit).

I went to linguistics class and then caught up with Laura in the concourse where I found myself STARVING. I had brought some dairy free yogurt and nuts, so I ate that for a snack before heading to Johnny’s. I watched soccer with him and his best friend, Camillo, and felt more attentive and like I understood the game than I have so far and that made me really happy. Can never get enough of seeing how passionate Johnny is about it and for that I have love and respect for the sport. He has also been an incredible support and helper, leading me back to God rather than Him and I pray each day that my love for him is the same. I can say the same for so many of my friendships currently, and for that I am so blessed.

For dinner before class I had a bowl of plain vegetable soup at the seminary, which certainly wasn’t enough, so I ate a Quest bar from my bag, too.

Class was centered around Matthew, and I love and respect my prof very much. I’m currently dozing off at Maddies while she studies, ready to lift my thoughts to the Lord and sleep.