I’ll cut to the chase. I lost my period for 7 years due to anorexia. As a result of my illness, I lost 80 pounds in 4 months, and my periods vanished, when I was 15. Over the next 7 years, I was visited by Ms. Flow a total of 3 or 4 times for …
How to Do the Minnie Maud Method (And Why You Can’t Half-Ass It)
There are some things in life that you can get away with half-assing. It’s almost never a good idea, but some circumstances might be more conducive to it than others. I mean, for example, only putting in the bare minimum at your job at Wendy’s or writing a paper for an elective in high school. …
Bizarre Eating Disorder Behaviours No One Knows About – And Why We Should Talk About Them
TRIGGER WARNING. This post discusses eating disorders, behaviours, and calories. If you know that this kind of conversation can trigger you, please refrain from reading this post, and choose another one of my posts to read. I NEVER intend or want to trigger anyone, but rather to help. But I know this disclaimer is important …
Freedom From The Bondage of Eating Disorders
“If you’re someone who works out all the time and eats really healthily—what’s wrong with that? That’s a good thing…right?” In the latest episode of my church’s podcast, The Cast, I had the opportunity to share my journey with 4 different eating disorders, and the freedom Jesus alone brought me to. You can listen to the …
Is Smaller Better?
TRIGGER WARNING: This blog post will discuss weight and body image. It has zero intention of triggering, but may not be suitable for all readers. If you are highly sensitive to triggers around this topic, please skip this post. Over the past several years, this question has been one that has been tough for me …
The Problem with “What I Eat in a Day” Videos
TRIGGER WARNING: This post discusses eating disorders. If it is not healthy for you to read this at this time, please do what is best for you. I’ve thought about this blog post for a looong time, but I felt too hypocritical. Something that God convicted me of for a long time was the amount …
Throwing Out Clothes that Don’t Fit Anymore – My Identity is Not Size “S”
The first time I tried on a pair of my size 2 jeans that didn’t fit anymore, I felt like I was dying. That’s how much the lie that I NEEDED to stay size 2 and size XS crept its way into my life. That’s how out-of-whack my priorities were. It really did feel like …
Overcoming Bulimia: My Experience
TRIGGER WARNING.I never intend to be triggering whatsoever in my posts, and intend for them to be pro-recovery and helpful for eating disorder sufferers. However, I know that triggers vary from person to person, so I am putting the disclaimer here. If you are easily triggered by eating disorder posts, even pro-recovery ones, maybe skip …
Marriage with an Eating Disorder (Part 2)
Read Part One. The month before my wedding was when I really started to consider what meals would look like every day when Johnny and I were married. I wasn’t about to cook him the dinners of my orthorexic past—usually 1/2 cup chicken breast boiled in water with some spinach and maaaybe a 1/4 avocado …
Dating with an Eating Disorder (Part 1)
Bringing a new, beautiful, wonderful, compassionate person into an eating disorder is like the downhill part of a rollercoaster. There’s so much relief and joy and butterflies… but a nagging voice of fear, the voice belonging to the disorder itself. How will I avoid eating with him? What if I can’t measure my food when …