Today I feel old.
I don’t know if it’s because I have cable tv in a house I’m renting,
think about work constantly– even when I’m not there and should be thinking about other things–
spending my days running errands, grocery shopping, vacuuming,
visiting my newly married friend’s renovated house, with three large rooms, two for her stepkids and her bedroom of course the shared master bedroom with her husband…
I feel old!
“Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18:2
This verse has spoken volumes to me recently that part of the purpose of my life is to be in community with other people.
Friendships and relationships have always been so incredible important to me. More accurately, the human beings in my life are so important to me.
And while my health needs to be looked after, and the house needs to be cleaned, and work needs to be done, these are all secondary to serving Jesus’ Kingdom. Which doesn’t always look like tiring work.
I recently came from an incredibly busy season that taught me the importance and necessity of resting. Resting, which can look like fellowship, accountability, and learning, but also still needs to look like literal, physical rest.
I’m slowly allotting it in to my life. Slowly learning that I don’t need to be go-go-go from the moment I awake to the moment I sleep to be loved or to be productive. In fact, this makes me grumpy, resentful, and stressed.
Thank you, Jesus, for your Word about child-like faith. I know that I need to turn and be like little children in my daily life and my love for You. Help me, by Your Spirit, to know when it’s time to “play” and when it’s time to “work.” Amen.