I’ve always believed I like routines.
I like knowing that my Wednesday involves class from 2:30-5:20, then Youth leading from 6:30-9. I do homework in the evening and sometimes work in the morning, but it’s also the one day I’m able to sleep in, so I take advantage of it if I can.
But the best things in life are never going to be of my own plans, my own routines, or my own ability to organize a day. They’re going to be when God debunks all that and speaks, and boy does He ever.
Today, after driver’s training, some stress over figuring out where the girls and I will be living next year, and class, I was feeling mentally and physically exhausted, moody, and anxious.
Struggling with the transition from being with Johnny 24/7 to being far away from him again, I spent some time in prayer that the Lord has continued to faithfully answer for His sake– drawing me back into Him.
At Youth tonight, Pastor Nat spoke about the apostle Paul’s conviction that everything else was literally crap compared to simply knowing Jesus Christ. Lord, open my eyes to know that. ALL I want in this life and after is to know You! And knowing You is to be changed and living joy.
Some of my blessings of friends from the church and I went out bowling after Youth, and I had such a fun and relaxed time. Having at first felt stressed about going because of assignments and studying piling up, I was so grateful that I did, surrounded by such beautiful and encouraging and fun friends. One of whom, Ani, shared with me how much Johnny and I had enriched her life indirectly through the Lord’s work in our relationship. So encouraging.
And, I came home late to my beautiful Maddie, who I talked and prayed with into the wee hours of the night– no time to do homework, and so it will be done in the morning. And that’s ok. Plans change, but God doesn’t. When I choose to know His plan will prevail perfectly, and submit to it willingly and contentedly, I am amazed by how loudly I hear Him speak.