TASTEFUL THURSDAY: Marshmallow Fruit Dip

Hello All!

Today was full of such random wonderfulness. Maddie and I watched more Nashville, my dance students had their final performance and I had some sweet conversations with their parents, a summative project in the concourse on mental illness and some prayed-over conversations with students, a wonderful coffee-catch-up with my beautiful momma, a hilarious sushi date with Maddie and our soon-to-be apartment mates Beth and Autumn.

Oh, and I randomly whipped up a marshmallow fluff thing inspired by something I saw on Pinterest with yesterday’s grocery finds: mini marshmallows and dairy-free cream cheese (to all my dairy-free friends, Daiya is great and delicious brand). I saw marshmallows in the candy aisle and couldn’t remember the last time I’d had any, but it took me straight to thoughts of the cottage!

It was delicious on fruit, but also straight out of the pot, and would probably go well on many other sweet things as well! A bagel with strawberries… cupcake frosting… if you love marshmallows, you’ll love these!

As always, measurements are guesses!

And, of course, you can substitute regular cream cheese for the Daiya!


Marshmallow Fruit Dip

Serves 1-2ish


1/4 c mini marshmallows

1/2 T almond milk

3 T dairy-free cream cheese

1 tsp cinnamon apple butter


  1. In a small saucepan, melt marshmallows with almond milk over medium-low heat, stirring constantly to remove all clumps.
  2. Stir in cream cheese and stir until consistent. Remove from heat.
  3. Stir in apple butter. Serve right away, or chill and serve!

WHAT I “ATE” WEDNESDAY: Swallowing Freedom

Alarm. I’d set one for 10am, *just in case* I didn’t wake before that. My friend Bethany snoozing in my top bunk, I end my alarm and kick the bottom of her mattress lightly. She’d wanted to get up earlier than 10. I can’t put to words the blessing it is to have her here.

We start our morning in the Word and prayer before rolling out of bed at some point. It is my last day of lectures of this semester, the day I’ll hand in the last of my final essays. All that’s left of these courses is two exams, on the 7th and 19th of April. I am proud of my semester. My GPA is two full points higher than my precious highest GPA. And that isn’t due to easier courses or anything but my Lord. Who has provided energy. Focus. Passion. Drive. Care.

I make breakfast for Bethany and I, throwing together oatmeal bowls with all da toppings! We watch the first episode of Nashville, a show I’ve wanted to watch since visiting the city with my family two years ago, and now Bethany already has me hooked. The music is AMAZING and takes me right back!

We head off to class and handing in my final essays has never felt so good. I am not whatsoever interested in the lecture topic today, and find myself praying throughout class– and watching muted Vines with a lovely girl, Kirsten, who has sat with me throughout the semester and whose smile is never ending.

I’m back at home and Bethany and Maddie and I are just in the living room and it sinks in that it’s basically summer! and I’m excited for a relaxing couple of weeks. The girls and I talk, eat, watch more Netflix, and allow rest to set in.

I’ve been talking to Maddie about how badly I want to make her pad Thai, because it’s one of her favourite meals, but she herself is not a cook. I’ve never made pad Thai before but I’m excited to! Worshipping and praising Jesus as I cook, tasting while I go, tapping my feet and talking to Maddie while she eats a million cashews before dinner. 

Jesus, I praise you for the miracle of cooking freely!!

Man, may I take a moment to somehow explain the amazing person that is Maddie. This beautiful, Christ-full soul, our relationship has become so blessedly sisterly I don’t know the difference. We have recently decided to have a daily prayer time set out, the two of us, and so we pray together now before dinner, more Nashville, and lots of laughs.

Jesus, guide our eyes to You. May our every breath and every act be glorifying to You my God, and in accordance with Your will. 

I head out after dinner to hang out with another beautiful friend, Jacqueline. We catch up briefly before I leave her to a paper and head off to my last Wednesday tap rehearsal!

I have loved and looked so forward to every one of these classes, and am so excited to perform this weekend! I have my genuine passion for dance back, praise be to God for that and praises to Him in all that I dance!

 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him. ECCLESIASTES 3:12-14


I have written about this before on this blog, as I intend to be very real, but I want to comment on my understanding of the fact that, for a long time, I blogged “eating disorder recovery” advice when I myself was not free, but rather IN bondage and sick, and now that I can say with certainty that I am free, I have zero rules regarding food, and I know who I am in Jesus Christ and that food rules are not a part of that, I again iterate an apology for the lacklustre and disordered “What I Ate Wednesdays,” the “Recovery Advice” that I was in no position to give, and recognize that, while my experiences were valid, the advice I chose to tie them with was often inspired by my demons rather than my Lord. This makes me sick.

My life is not consumed by food anymore.

It is, however, full of the discovery of new foods that I love. My friends have joked that I’m like a baby, discovering what I do and don’t like to eat. Here are some new foods that I have learned that I, apart from any voice or influence, love, and have been eating frequently.

Bagels. I eat the bagels at Starbucks often in the middle of my shifts and 😍 bagels rock!!

Chocolate. Chocolate flavoured things are the best. Our mocha sauce at work is dairy free and I often put some in my lattes or smoothies or dip bananas in it. Yuuum.

Peanut Butter. Yup, it’s still my favourite food. Now, I just eat more of it, and, oh yeah, I don’t stick it in a tablespoon and level it off with a knife before I eat it. The natural, just peanuts kind is my fav, but I wouldn’t say no to the fake stuff.

Beef. I’ve been making spaghetti, and actually using the organic beef in my freezer finally! 
Sauces. There was a time that I avoided sauces like the plague, but I now OF course use tomato sauce in my pasta, peanut butter sauce in pad Thai, dressings, and any sauces!

Dairy-Free Ice Cream, Cheese, and Yogurt. Some of my favourite snacks, I’ve discovered! I’ve been sprinkling dairy free cheese on savoury food, and coconut yogurt is a great snack!

Cereal and Granola and Bars. One of my favourite foods, and to sprinkle and crumble on breakfasts.

Veggies. I adore and often crave tons and tons of veggies: carrots, celery, cucumber, broccoli, sweet potato are staples.

Dairy Free Milk in Coffee. I used to usually skip it in coffee and tea, but of course I LIKE it in my coffee, so I PUT it my coffee… like no-brainer…

Tell Me!

  • What is a food you pretty much don’t go a day without? Mine’s peanut butter!


Colossians 3:12 “Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience.”

There is a lot weighing on my heart in this moment, and I don’t quite know how to phrase it. So I pray right now, Lord Jesus, that you would intercede.

Today I had a really enlightening conversation with one of my professors, and it moved me to pray. And I experienced some incredible revelations in who our Lord is. 

Philippians 2:6-7 “Though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men.” 

Numbers 12:3 “Now the man Moses was very meek, more than all people who were on the face of the earth.”

Titus 3:2 “To speak evil of no one, to avoid quarreling, to be gentle, and to show perfect courtesy toward all people.”

1 Peter 3:4 “But let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.”

Jesus spoke tenderly when I quieted my questions and listened. He spoke through beautiful friends, and through His Word in that

it will never be my theological wording or prompts or behaviours that affect or alter who He is, and who He makes Himself to be in the this world. I live by grace through faith alone, and while that is an overwhelming reality, if I am in accordance with His Spirit, it will be received by others as the Truth, too. Ultimately, “I” am not the important element, but rather Him in me just Him. 

Paul’s twelfth chapter in the book of Romans is broken into three parts often named a Living Sacrifice, Humble Service in the Body of Christ, and Love in Action. 

The humble service He calls us to is not one of frustration, anger, or spite against others. Rather he reminds us that, “ If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone” (Romans 12: 18). As there is less of me and more of Him, my spirit feels less called to share and write and “post,” as He just is. I have unlimited faith that He can do it, because He already did it. 

I am blessed by a lot of model servants of the Kingdom in my life, Christ inside of them living a serving, and not boastful or anxious life. Rather than modelling or looking to them, I have been granted a peaceful spirit by my Saviour, that He will do it. He is doing it. He is the life-source.

Sometimes it is just quiet moments, just me and Him. Other times it is in the places of the most noise and “world chaos.” Because He is. 

And what is His love in action?

Romans 12:9-16 Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord’s people who are in need.Practice hospitality.

Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another.Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. 



This morning I woke up so thirsty for some reason, and not craving coffee first thing! What? I’ve found drinking water to be a chore since I was a little kid, so I wanted something refreshing and juicy.

So I threw some things in a blender and this was delicious!

These are guesstimate amounts of course! I just threw these ingredients in a blender as I had them in my pantry and it was goooood!

Apple Pie Smoothie


1/3 apple, peeled and cored and chopped

1 walnut

1 T vanilla protein powder

3 T coconut yogurt

little squeeze of lemon juice

1 T oats

splash of water


  1. Throw everything into a blender and blend until smooth. Pour and serve over ice.


Today, if only you would hear his voice,
 “Do not harden your hearts. PSALM 95: 7-8

I pray yours is the only voice I hear, Jesus.

Today started with worship, and it was rushed. It “bugged” me. Those sleep-in days when you want to start your morning with worship and the Word but you have commitments and time things and life,

but there is no “but,”

and here’s the thing, HA, whether I’m intimately worshipping Jesus and in the Word or out with friends or in class or in the midst of spiritual battle or singing His praises from the rooftops, HE IS. “My” state is gone.

My chains are gone,

I’ve been set free,

This is the power of Christ in me.

I thank Him for friends and loved ones as Maddie, Mary, Bethany, Michele and I head to Symposium Cafe for birthday breakfast to celebrate Bethany’s birthday. I eat dairy-free French toast with powdered sugar and drink coffee and rest in Him and love being with the girls.


Bethany and I study. I am grateful she quizzes me because I think I ace my poetry quiz! Class flies by and I am excited to see my friend Cassia. We have lunch and go to the mall and I buy clothes for the first time in foreeeever, and parts of my dance costume! Grocery shopping, helping Cass find clothes, and catching up with this gorgeous beam of light.

My next class creeps up and it’s a peer editing session, Thank-you Jesus for words, for the opportunity to read others’ work and see YOU in other students’ work! I get to edit a classmates’ essay about father figures, and her thesis is about how father characters all stem from the love of God. So cool.

I head home and remember I had taken out extra ground beef and ask all the girls if I can make dinner. I cook, we eat pasta, and other goodies, and tea, and half-do-homework, and laugh, and the sun is shining and Mary and I marvel at our God and how the English language is not remotely good enough– even those words, “not remotely good enough,” don’t come close enough– to describe or put words to His goodness and being with Him, and that is because HE IS.

I don’t have to “worry” about Johnny knowing how much I love him, how affirmed I am of our love and oneness because JESUS IS. *Johnny’s hair has grown since I’ve last seen it and I really like it– but he should know that I’ll probs go for a haircut with our amazing hair dresser, Pam, in early May, if he’d like to tag along ;).*

I’m not called to fear, or anxiousness, or faint heart, because Jesus needs me courageous and ready to do His will.

I am grateful to Him for restoration in relationships, for such peace with Mary. We watch a show together while I snack before dance and fuel up and as I dance, thank Him, tears in my eyes, because I know I haven’t danced like this, with energy, and joy, for years. Thank-you Jesus, my dancing is YOURS, Jesus!

I am home, and I am in my Father’s arms, resting in His ever-present light and warmth, marvelling in the fullness of His love and learning what it is light to embrace the power of His Spirit through trust in His grace and Truth.

TEN THINGS TUESDAY: God’s Healing Garden

I have always been fascinated by the endlessly vast array of edible– and inedible– growing and existent compounds God chose to create and include in the world. Of course, His Word and His Spirit’s breath are all the healing we need, and we find Him in His Creation. Where prayer and spiritual battles often are not ones in which ingested remedies are called for, sicknesses and ailments caused by man should not be solved by man, but by Him! I haven’t tried all of these, but here are a few of His good things that are miraculously healing that are pretty darn amazing. 

Ginger for Stomachaches. I’ve been putting up with lots of stomachahes lately as my body gets used to all sorts of different foods and more of them; I am amazed by its natural properties that help with antinauesa. Meant for eating, ginger grows in God’s garden in the form of flowers! It’s great as a tea with honey, spicing stir fries, or in Christmas cookies!
Tart cherries for sleeplessness. Tart cherries naturally have a ton of melatonin, which is the hormone the body naturally regulates when you’re sleeping. Snacking on them before bed, or maybe blending into a smoothie, or drinking cherry juice fills your body with more of the hormone. 

Yogurt and lemon for breath. Anything acidic is a natural odour neutralizer, so gargling with lemon juice will be most powerful, but even drinking lemon water aids. Following that up with any bacteria-containing yogurt works with acid to naturally neutralize odours! 

Black tea for tired eyes. You know DRINKING it wakes you up, but the same compounds naturally in the tea, called tannins, when steeped in hot water and then applied to wrinkled, tired eyes can reduce puffiness and instill a wake-up call. 

Sugar for hiccups. You’ve heard that hanging upside down or being scared are your best bets; but any little granules swallowed works on the nerve causing the hiccups; think salt or sugar (of course sugar tastes the best!)

Chocolate for a tickle. Theobromine, naturally found in cocoa, suppresses persistent coughs. 

Magnesium for headaches. Magnesium supplements, or magnesium-rich foods, are your best friends when dealing with a headache, which is a naturally nerve-relaxing mineral. Spinach, nuts and seeds, and bananas are a few examples.

Raspberry tea for cramping. Raspberry leaf naturally contains fragrances that significantly reduce stomach cramping. 

Aloe for burns. Aloe Vera plants produce oil that can be made into a gel, that has incredible anti-inflammatory properties amazing for sunburns and any skin flare.

Olive oil for chapped lips. Olives are my least favourite food, haha, but they contain tons of antioxidants and anti-inflammatories that soften and smooth out skin much better than any man-made, chemical laden balm. 

And God said, “Let the earth sprout vegetation, plants yielding seed, and fruit trees bearing fruit in which is their seed, each according to its kind, on the earth.” And it was so. Genesis 1:11

(No longer drink only water, but use a little wine for the sake of your stomach and your frequent ailments.) 1 Timothy 5:23

So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God 1 CORINTHIANS 10:31