We need maturity in Christ that lets us not just know His care, but experience it. –Heather Holleman
I have never in my life experienced more giddy joy than what I am in right now. And His name is Jesus.
Jesus who can work little by little and so gently– but who also can and does radically heal.
I have been convicted by people I trust dearly that it is not possible to “continue to put something on the altar until it is done.” Something that has conviction over it, a burden, a sin, can only be laid on the altar once. For once it is at the feet of Jesus, it cannot be picked up again.
By the grace of Jesus Christ alone, I have laid anorexia on the altar. And as He has little by little helped me to squeeze His hand tighter over the past while, He has just created a testimony of healing in the midst of my grasping His Spirit as He offered it with every ounce of Himself. Operating out of His Spirit with a new mind, I boast in Jesus alone.
Righteousness defined by Jesus alone; identity in Jesus alone is a FACT, not a “feeling.” We can experience it always, because it is always True. It is not a different “moment” or “thing” within me, it is simply His timing that has now created a new mind in me.
A mind that already has been decluttered, awakened, and made to see the death that I was living in. Made to hate the laws I was convinced I needed to live by.
For it is not the one who commends himself who is approved, but the one whom the Lord commends. –2 CORINTHIANS 10:17
Not once has the Lord commended me for following food laws.
In fact, he has convicted me, in His so loving way, that I indeed identified with and idolized these rules.
This has been repented, forgiven, and renewed, by the grace and movement and power of Jesus Christ. Through knowledge and fear of Him, through a servant heart given by Him for His glory.
My measuring cups thrown out, along with the physical laws ripped up and in the garbage. Overcome by the Spirit, wrapped in His arms, laughing and crying and worshipping.
We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise. We, however, will not boast beyond proper limits, but will confine our boasting to the sphere of service God himself has assigned to us, a sphere that also includes you. –2 CORINTHIANS 10:12-13
Lord, I praise you for the Word you have used in and through my life, for the people you have spoken through, for the testimony you have made for your glory.
If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing. 1 CORINTHIANS 13: 2-3
And for the word you whispered out of this this morning: If you have food rules, but do not have love, you have nothing.
In comes awe of Jesus, and fear of Him all at once. I don’t want to live out of a place of the world. I know that Your everlasting love, Jesus, is all that is not “nothing.”
And I believe with every ounce of me that this is the last you’ll hear of this disorder. God is not calling me to talk about it. I hear His voice louder than ever before, and He has put a song in my heart of just how GOOD He is– and all sorts of ways He’s calling me to serve Him that the devil has tried to keep hidden through condemnation in the law.
If you have questions or comments or anything on your heart about this post, please feel free to reach out. If you know me personally, I am always willing to sit and chat for the Lord’s glory and sake about the testimony He has made. Absolutely feel free to make that connection if you feel called!
Otherwise, I’ll see you next time. I don’t know what the blog will keep doing, but He does, and I’m excited to find out.
They will have no fear of bad news;
their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord. PSALM 112:7