And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. Romans 8:28
Happy Hump Day, y’all!!
How are you? What is the Lord doing in your life? What has He brought you to that is glorifying His Holy name? I pray that these are the sort of things filling our hearts and souls.
My day didn’t go quite as expected today, and this used to really frustrate me. But the Lord has given me peace in that there’s no such thing as my own agenda– my life may only work by His, and the more I love Him and grow in Him the more I come to be only expectant of HIS greatness–which never fails.
I woke up much earlier than usual for my first and last exam, in Religion. I had a big breakfast for studying: a big bowl of oatmeal with sliced banana, a ton of dates, and blueberries. It kept me strong for hours and hours. I bussed to my exam, and ran into my sister’s best friend Katrina on the bus. We chatted and she helped me find my way to the stadium where my exam was– even when I think I’ve got directions down, I usually don’t!
My exam went really, really well! Extra studying paid off and I’m really happy with how it went. My shift at Cora’s started at 11, so I bussed back to Kitchener.
Eating and food was coming up a lot at work today and I could feel myself shaking, triggered by the calorie and weight loss talk. I prayed and refocused and for the first time ever, gently talked to my co-workers about my eating disorder who all sheepishly replied that– they knew! They read my blog! It was crazy at first, but they talked to me about being open about it not being a bad thing, and I do agree. I really trust and love both the girls I talked to, and it actually felt really good to talk about in one of my everyday environments.
For lunch, I took home a bowl of oatmeal from work with berries. Not too much later, my stomach was growling, and I snacked on a pile of dates with cucumber and carrots. Don’t knock it till you try it– I love this combo!
Tonight, my sister and a group of my friends were supposed to go to the Outcry Tour in Hamilton. Long story short and due to some poor planning, we missed the concert. This is okay and I am blogging now because I feel called to spend the night in the Word and in prayer and to myself. I’m exhausted from little sleep and don’t often make the decision to just lay low, and despite always wanting to be out and about, the Lord is installing in me the importance of time with solely Him. I am expectant, again, of HIS greatness in that time.
I got a lot done, though, cleaning my room, finishing my resume, updating the blog, chatting with my little sister, went for a run, and reading. For dinner I had two sweet potatoes stuffed with dates and more cucumber.
I am currently snacking on a bowl of mango, blueberries, and dates as I blog, wearing my “Blogging All Day” shirt, and in creeping open other tabs and praying on words found an incredible quote from some person called Corrie Boom, who also wrote the quote “Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows; it empties today of its strength.”
Here is the quote:
“Even as the angry vengeful thoughts boiled through me, I saw the sin of them. Jesus Christ had died for this man; was I going to ask for more? Lord Jesus, I prayed, forgive me and help me to forgive him. Jesus, I cannot forgive him. Give me your forgiveness. And so I discovered that it is not on our forgiveness any more than on our goodness that the world’s healing hinges, but on His. When He tells us to love our enemies, He gives along with the command, the love itself.”
Ah, so good and to His glory. Praise be to God!