He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. ECCLESIASTES 3:11-12
I have eaten according to my hunger today.
I FEEL LIKE I AM TASTING FOOD FOR THE FIRST TIME. And I genuinely have no fear in it, because it has felt so good…. in this new sense of understanding that is unexplainable. This shift has been Jesus.
I have some fear and reservations in saying this because I have said it before. And then struggled and felt like I was “living up” to His name. But oh, how it is not in my own human responsibility to “live up.” Yes, I am called to submit to His will, to pray, to do as He says– not only called, but I DELIGHT in these things more each and every day as He fills me up. But I also have renewed trust and understanding of which voices are bad and which voices are not of my God and as a result of listening to Him in terms of food where I never before have, I feel free and alive in a way I never before have.
Today I ate French toast, I ate a burger, I snacked while my roommates’ friends were in the living room.
I prayed over every aspect of my day and for my family and friends and things outside my own corner.
I had an amazing and beautiful coffee date with Johnny’s soon-to-be sister-in-law, who is such a stunning light of the Lord and who I cannot wait to get to know even more.
Today I woke up more confident than ever in my love for and relationship with Johnny as we pursue God in each other and feel Him drawing us toward Him as the centre.
I woke up thanking and praising my God for His victory, grace, tough love, and the timing that I am not made to fully understand.
I woke up to a roommate (and another one in Niagara) who loves me and pours into me, a beautiful family in Kitchener, and amazing friends– and ultimately an amazing God.
This is a post of thankfulness and praise. I don’t have it all together, but may my life be nothing but a beautiful offering and my body nothing but a vessel through which He works.
I am not an endorser of this disorder because God isn’t. And I praise and thank Him for showing me that.